Run, Julie, Run - Challenge Accepted, Again
I told very few people because it was just too crazy, even for me. At that point I was a totally casual and fairly new runner. I had run exactly 2 races: both 5Ks (which are very different than 50 miles). But I started planning; I started training; I started racing. I hired a coach. And I ran....
But from the beginning this was less about the results and more about the trying. This was a ridiculous, incredibly aggressive goal that I set for myself. And big goals come with equally big risks. I knew how unlikely this goal was, but I wanted to try. I wanted to push myself to see what I could do.
And then I got sick. I assumed I was out of the race. I've debated my options.
But I keep coming back to my initial challenge: to see what I could do; to have a grand adventure. So once again, I accept that challenge! Unless I suddenly take a turn for the worse, I plan to run on Saturday. And I plan to run in the 50 mile race. I have no idea how I'll do - I never really did. I'll run as far as I can, walk when I need to, and stop when I have to - that may be at 6 miles, 20, or 34. Who knows? It doesn't really matter.
What matters is that this is the race on which I set my sights. This is the race I wanted to try. And it's the trying that matters.
There will be other races to think more about results. For now, success is about the attempt. And so, in a way, I've already succeeded. I've trained hard, accomplished far more than I ever imagined. I've managed to remain injury-free. Yes, there have been little dings and aches & pains, but no major injuries. If I hadn't gotten the flu, I would have been quite well-prepared. That alone counts as a big success.
So, this Saturday, at 5:00am, I will be starting this race, my race. I'll be running with a sense of adventure, success, and celebration.
And I'll be running with the knowledge that the very biggest success is that I'm able to run this race at all.
- BY Julie Goodale | 05.04.2011
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